Friday, November 21, 2008

Life is sooo cruel sometimes

I'm writing this for a reason... some of you may not now but 5 years ago, before I got 21, my father was killed in a car accident. (He was 49) That was the MOST horrible time of my life, thought I would never get through it and miss him SOO much still every day. Aren't totally fine with it today, but guess God had other bigger plans for him. He didn't even got the chance to be at my wedding, luckily he met Lucas before, seen him a few times and he loved him. He was everything to me, a good father, I am the smallest of the 3 daughters so I was my daddies blue eyed girl (letterlik en figuurlik). Sometimes I miss his calls, I miss his blue eyes and his laughter... and to lost him so suddenly was a big shock.. I will ALWAYS love him and remember him. Even when I close my eyes I can see him, hear him.. what a wonderful father!!!!

Then... 4 years later, I got the sad news, my mom was also killed in a car accident (weird) how both of them were taken away and so suddenly your whole world change, you attitude towards life change, yourself, everything. My mom was at my wedding, GREAT woman, loved her to bits.. and still do! Sometimes when we all got together, we couldn't stop talking for hours... till LATE in the night. Miss her sooo much, was also always there and inspiring me and comfort me through this ttc journey. Miss that also, miss her phonecalls, her green eyes and loving heart. Miss everything about her for being my mommy!

I will always remember them, the BEST parents ever, they were both like my brother and sister, could tell them anything at anytime.. they always listened and gave me some hope! Today, I don't have that comfort and that caring for (yes, I LOVE my in-laws but surely you'll understand it's not the same... wish they were here, today, every day!!!!!

People get killed, die of cancer, other illnesses and still we don't know when our time will be, tomorrow, next week, next year.

DEAR GOD, please keep us safe, please keep us in your heart, please protect us wherever we go, whatever we do, please guide us in the right direction. Keep us safe, put angels around us, protect us please, we would LOVE to be such GREAT parents as our parents was.. and that only You and give us... I thank U Lord!!!!! Amen

My all our wishes come true and may we receive that blessing in life that everybodies getting, a chance to be a parent!!!

xxxx

2 comments:

Lilian January said...

wow! what a journey. I totally understand you about your parents and it is not a good feeling. But they will always be with you, in your heart.

Anonymous said...

Im really sorry to hear that both your parents were killed in a car accident. I never knew and Im so sorry. You are a beautiful and strong woman and deserve everyting of the best. You WILL be an excellent mommy one day, that I know for sure!